Up to this point 2

I had to have a break from what I had written, the emotions that I try to keep in check just overwhelmed me.

The days and months that followed just melded into one another, only sleeping when it was the last resort because of the nightmares and then only for short periods until they woke me. The kids barely went to school and only if they where bored of sitting around the house.
Then I got a letter from the Real Estate we where renting from saying that they where going to increase my rent another $200 a month on top of the $1200 i was paying now. There was no way I could stretch things any further so I had to move. 2 months notice I was given but started looking right away for another place. Time and again my applications where rejected and it came to the point I was facing homelessness.. for the first time in my life I had no where to go. It looked like I would have to give up my 2 kids to their father so they would have a roof over their heads... I dreaded it...loosing them..I was constantly sick thinking of it. If I didn't have them
then it would mean the end of my reason for being here.
Then a guardian angel appeared in the form of my best friend whom alot of you know as Tearose and her husband.
They offered me their spare room and rearrange their apartment to allow for me and the kids to move in as long as we needed. As thankful as I was, I still stressed over having to deal with people everyday. She kept assuring me that it would be fine. So we packed up and moved in with them on the 8th of October this year.
I have to say its been the best thing that could have happened. I have my best friend right here to talk with and cry with, my son absolutely adores her husband and doesn't want to move ever lol. My daughter has started a new school with so many more opportunities than with the old school.
And we live across the road from the most beautiful beach in the world...( I still dont get there much yet as
I still have alot of issues with going out) but I feel alot more relaxed here and Tea has said she has seen a
improvement already in the month we have been here. Some days are good some are bad but I think maybe the bad
are getting less.
So here I am at the next faze of my life.. I turned 44 the day before Tea turned... something lol... we had a wonderful birthday and did girly things.. got our hair cut and got pampered and even got our noses pierced.
I have so much to be thankful for especially my best friend. She has been trying to get me to do this for the past 4 years or so and she is amazing with what she has accomplished so far.
I only hope I dont let her down.